Australia - Step 8.7: finding peace and acceptance in Lennox Head & a heartbreak in Melbourne

It is weird, because in my head, I was convinced that I already summarised and posted my whole Lennox stay. But apparently that never happened here, maybe it was the voice notes and personal journal entries & that led me to that confusion. Anyways, here it comes.

I think Lennox Head was my favourite Housesit experience. Not necessarily only because of the sit, house, place and cats. Because the sit I had for a month in Brisbane had similar qualities when it comes to these aspects, but I was in a different state of mind.

In Lennox I reached a state of fully accepting everything as is, rather than constantly looking for something thats „missing“ for me to fully enjoy the experience. A job, a group of new people to make friends, someone to cook together with, a different way of traveling. Thats what I was longing for in Brisbane, not constantly, but it was distracting me of the reality of now.

Then in that catsit in Lennox Head - which came to me, because my plans didn’t work out and I needed to readjust - I understood that everything that I have and that comes to me, is exactly what is meant for me. And that it is actually really nice: I got a house for myself, somewhere close to the beach in Australia, two fatty cattys to keep me company, all the time in the world to focus on myself and somehow it always works out. This is a gift. and it truly was.

I spend my time with things that I love and that I know are good for me: meditation, yoga, nature, gym, long beach walks, journaling, crafting, drawing, listening to music, reading, dancing, doing nothing and sensing the beingness of myself. These things lead me to a new state of mind which felt peaceful, accepting, calm, abundant and good. Not in an over ecstatic way, constantly positive and happy. More in way of surrendering to reality less than craving for a delusion, for what I want reality to be like. Radical acceptance. Which is also the name of the book, I was reading at this time - so for sure it was a helping guide.

I am used to spend a lot of time alone and never had a problem with that. But in that precious time, I was not only okay with doing that, I felt like I truly enjoyed my own company and with that realised: if I want to spend time with someone, they need to be an add-on to that and not just for the sake of not being alone. My energy is sacred and I don’t need it to be drained for something or someone that doesn't reciprocates this energy.

And being in that vibration - I met a girl from the UK and we shared some beautiful moments, conversations and time together. This encounter also added to my retreat-like experience in Lennox.💕

Now that not only that sit is in the past, but also the 2 weeks after that, which I spent in Melbourne. It is funny to see how there was an almost violent change of environment and energy between these places. Coming from my era of selflove, butterflies and unicorns 🦄 🌈✨ - I took a flight to Melbourne and with that to 11 degrees, rainy days and a heartbreak. Which means I was there supposedly to meet a „friend“ from the time when I lived in Torquay.

But it didn't took more than 2 days for me to realise that this is exactly what I don't need: spending time around people who drain my energy and don't match mine. So again what I „planned“ was doomed to fail and I readjusted my plans.

Luckily, I had more friends in Torquay - who are caring and supportive & really helped me in that situation and I was more than grateful to spend time with them and also my husband Blue (one of the dogs I lived with). I guess this whole thing was another lesson on my soulpath, which I am happy to accept. As painful as it was, I reminded myself in those days: this too shall pass.

Now I am in Perth, very far from the other places I visited in Australia so far. I got another beautiful, cuddly dog and two rabbits here in a housesit. Already a new gym contract and ready to continue my self-healing retreat that I started in Lennox.